A Descent into Dullness

I'm remembering again why I never do anything on the weekends when I'm working at the Scottsdale job. Its not just the 11-7 shifts on T/F/S. Its that I'm awake for a couple hours in the morning when I get home. Wake up for a few hours in the afternoon and then pretty much fall back asleep until its time to get ready for work...

I had intended to get up at 7pm so I could at least stop by a surprise party for the friend who owns my comics shop, but I just could not get the energy to get back up again until 9:30...

No new comics today, I'll probably go into the shop Thursday or Friday instead. Tired still from having to cover the desk for an extra hour and a half. A-shift relief had some kind of emergency. Still the couple extra bucks on my pay check will be helpful...

1. I signed up for food stamps this weekend. Even more than having to take unemployment six years ago, this makes me feel like a failure. Also depressed...

2. I have given up on trying to get in touch with my local friends. When having money for one of them doesn't get them to return calls or e-mails it definitely makes one feel unwanted. Which means I'm becoming a hermit outside of weekly visits to the family and comics shop...

3. I haven't forgotten the interest inspiration writing thing. I've got one done and am working on the other four but I've had to scrap my first couple concepts because they were really, really bad...

4. I'm sleeping a lot lately. Some of this is just how exhausted I feel after spending even a few hours outside shopping or dropping off resumes. Some of its probably depression...

5. I need a gaming group. A real life one. I miss that level of social interaction...

Got my copy of Wind Tunnel Dreams by shadesong today. Very pretty cover. The glasses on the woman are a nice little touch...

I'm reading a lot this month. Probably from having all this free time with not working most of the week. And not having such a screwed up sleep schedule. I'm generally managing six to eight hours straight instead of the four hours out, then awake for awhile, then sometimes managing another four hours before work...

Plus I've got nothing social going on. No one returns calls, even when the phone was working. Which its not right now. But I call the few people I know and no one ever calls back. Which makes me sad. I'm living near my friends again, I've got my weekends free until I find more work and STILL I'm at home. I'm just not a drop-in on people kind of person...

Anyways. Enough whining. New book!

Bills paid. Except COX. Which shows a 0 balance for the month. Which doesn't sound right. So I'll probably have to call them and find out. Also hardback books sorted up to the letter F. Still don't know where I'm going to put my paperbacks. I do eventually want to USE my dining room table...

Also I fell back asleep rather than get up at 11:30 to go into the monthly work meeting. Which invalidates me for that particular bonus check. Was sleeping for 5 hours straight instead of 2 worth losing a couple hours of overtime and future bonus (which after my tax takeout is like twenty bucks)? I'm going to say yes. Yes it was...

Less a nap actually and more trying to go back to sleep after waking up dehydrated and headachey after only a few hours...